18 October 2016

Paula Michal-Johnson, Jikiden Reiki Shihan

If we are so lucky, so blessed, so deemed worthy (perhaps through the merit of our ancestors) we are able in this present Life to be touched by someone so special that they help form the foundation for the next step of our evolution.

In 2007 I put it out to the Universe that I wanted to meet a Reiki Master Teacher who would train me as such. But not just any teacher, but a teacher who truly understood the heart of Reki. One who embodied Love and Compassion and who was dedicated to helping others.

I met such a woman as I was leaving my doctors office.

This little voice that sound so giddy and happy was explaining to those around her that she had just left hospice where she had given Reiki to several patients. I heard HOSPICE and REIKI and my ears were perked.  Turning around and looking for the origins of the voice I looked and saw this amazing woman, small in stature but giant in presence. Her name, Paula Michal-Johnson​. I was EXCITED because I knew she was the answer to my request.

I went over and introduced myself to this amazing spirit of a woman and asked if she taught Reiki and if I could learn with her. From there began a warm mentor-ship. We shared the same birthday month, hers October 7th and mine October 8th and a shared love of Quan Yin/ Kannon.

In December of 2007 I took my Reiki Master Teacher class with this amazing woman. And in January of 2008 I asked her if I could apprentice with her. I did for a year. Helping teaching various classes on all levels of Reiki.

She was a cool, energetic and awesome person. She taught and inspired me in my energy healing practice. I believe we inspired each other. When I became friends with Frank Arjava Petter​ on Facebook inviting him to come teach classes in the Philly area.  I knew that Paula had taken classes with him and asked her permission that if I invited him that she would make all the arrangements. She did an amazing job. She later became a Jikiden Shihan and taught others in this lineage. She never ceased to amaze me. I aspire to be like her.

Even though life made me busy again with a little one, Paula was always dear in my heart. And so important to the foundation of my practice.

It was with great sadness and extreme shock that I learned of my dear Teacher/Mentors passing this past Friday.

Paula Michal-Johnson THANK YOU for all you have gifted me. I promise to not let you down in my journey. I still have my small Shiva  seed stone that you gifted me when I co-taught the Reiki Master Class with you from which I graduated my apprentice-ship with you. Every day it reminds me to nurture my potential. Thank you Paula. With great sadness I say goodbye to you in this life. I love you. http://www.heintzelmancares.com/home/index.cfm?action=public%3Aobituaries.view&lud=7BCAF2C3265A4C6B6691296A888B95DE&id=3944811&fh_id=14897

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22 September 2016

Soundless Sound

Everyday on my journey I start fresh

I am not the same as yesterday

I am the me who is growing & learning

Yet I seek the soundless sound that reminds me
I AM & that I AM the same as when I was new & fresh

I remember to flow as water

originally written August 2011
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12 May 2016

Heaven and Hell

Heaven and hell are very real places. As real as our own thoughts.

Relative spaces in which we dwell full bodied in thought, feelings, energy, emotions and body.

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12 April 2016

Vassar College, My Spiritual, Mystical Hebrew Letters & Meditation Journey Part 1

Dr. Epstein's KABBALAH class is an amazing group of students. They were all very kind. They seem to enjoy my sharing my spiritual journey and how the Hebrew Alef Bet inspired me.

I asked them to take a moment and create cards with a few of their own favorite letters.

One young man, Patrick Sussman, Class of 2017, gifted his two cards to me.

Thank you Dr. Marc Epstein! Thanks Patrick! And thank you Kabbalah Class.

more updates later....

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08 March 2016

Rosh Chodesh March 8th

Tonight is Rosh Chodesh...Beginning of the Lunar month or New Moon. 

It is a Super New Moon, meaning that the Moon will be closer to the Earth and "appear" much large.

New moons are dark and invisible to us but the energy is powerful.  This is an amazing time to plant new seeds and new energy in your life.

In the darkness of the womb is where new life begins. Life is nurtured in darkness. We naturally sleep in the darkness where we are thus regenerated, refreshed and renewed.

Take a moment to allow yourself to be renewed this evening.  Take time to journal your thoughts, visions and ideas and watch how they take root and transform as the moon begins to wax this month.

Also we have a Solar Eclipse we are moving into today and tomorrow. A wonderful time to truly let go of old wounds and absorb healing power to transform. 

And with the energy of this Super New Moon... just think of the amazing energetic seeds that can be planted in your life. 

Set your attention to allow the combination of the Super New Moon and Solar Eclipse to transform you. Let go.

 Are you ready for true transformation? 

This is also a wonderful time to set out your crystals in order to clear them.
Sit in meditation to clear and release old wounds.

@google images

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17 February 2016

Light of Being

There is a Light inside of you
That is more brilliant than a thousand Suns.

Seek that Light.

Embrace your Light.

For it will illuminate.
Your path.

It will nourish your BEing,

And you will


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14 February 2016

The Day We Choose Love

Today, February 14th, is the day that mainstream society chooses, en masse, to Love and be Love.

Flowers are given as tokens of Love. Chocolate is shared in large quantities. Even strangers wish Love to those who cross their paths. 

For one day, we all seem to float in the ocean of Love. Love indeed is a many splendid thing. Love is a choice.

We all choose to fall in Love. Say what? Yes, we make a choice whether we realize it or not.

We do not make a choice to have feelings for a person, nor do we make a choice to have an attraction for a person.

We do, however, make a choice to allow ourselves to "fall into Love". How do we make a choice to "fall into Love" or to "be in Love"?

We make that choice when we choose to see that person and interact with that person in complete trust, enthusiasm and through the eyes of Love. We choose Love rather than to remain closed off through fear.

Love trusts. Love is open. Love is the willingness to accept the person as they present themselves. We choose to interact with them through Love and not through control or judgment or fear.

Love is more than an emotion it is a state of the soul, of being, a state of grace.

Even if the person does something that we may not like in that particular moment we give their misstep no second glance as we view them only via the eyes of Love. We are willing to forgive because we realize that we all make mistakes.

Love is open. Love is compassionate. Love is patient.

How then do relationships go bad?

One of the primary ways relationships go bad, especially so called Love Relationships, when at least one or both partners stop viewing the other through Love but through their own fears or preconceived notions, through their own subconscious programming.

When one is In Love and interacting with their partner In Love they focus only on their emotions and their interaction with their Beloved and are cradled in the infinite possibilities of Love.

They trust. They are open. They are willing to try to understand their partner.

In every moment they choose Love.

If Love is not the true foundation of your consciousness it is difficult to maintain that feeling of being In Love.

Fear is the opposite of Love.

A persons subconscious is either founded upon the premise of Love or its founded upon the premise of Fear/Lack.

How does this play out in relationships?

Insecurity. Jealousy. Mistrust. An unwillingness to not allow trust to develop and grow. An unwillingness to allow the partner to open at their own pace. A desire to control or force the partner to operate on a level they are not yet ready. A lack of trust in the partners ability to be present.

A lack of Self-Love or Fear/Lack as the foundation of ones personality plays itself out profoundly in personal love relationships.

If the core root of who you are is that of not truly loving yourself it will rear its head in the way you interact with your Beloved.

When your Beloved does something that you may not understand you may choose to interact in one of two ways.

You may choose to react through Love. You will be patient and attempt to not only hear their explanation but also to accept their explanation.

You may choose to completely step out of Love and step into judgment.

Once you step out of Love you then step into Fear/Lack mode. In that mode you begin to filter your responses through your subconscious data base of past interactions and hurts.

You begin to think and dissect the deeds your Beloved, not from a place of objectivity but from a place of subjectivity.

How? Instead of being open to their explanation and trusting their explanation you instead begin to judge. Instead of seeking an explanation you immediately play a mental tape that includes every negativity that could possibly be conceived. Then that negative perception is accepted as fact and you build a narrative around your Beloved. You then begin to look at other actions and create narratives around them.

Your conscious mind begins to analyze and categorize and judge even more. Your negative thoughts begin to dominate the positive ones. 
Your negative thoughts begin to influence your hormones. 
Instead of oxytocin, the bonding/Love hormone, washing through your system, cortisone and other stress hormones begin to flood your system.  Before you know it your emotions become dark and your feelings alter.
You begin to project your own fear/lack onto your partner and truly believe it is coming from them rather than you your own mind. You completely believe that they are no longer what you thought and you have completely convinced yourself of your inner negative narrative.

You thus, fall "out of Love".

Our world is based upon our individual perceptions. Perceptions are not necessarily reality. Our perceptions are informed by subconscious thought patterns. If our subconscious thought patterns are based in insecurity, fear, or lack  they will inevitably destroy anything we attempt to build.

Our subconscious program can fully convince as that our perception is the true reality of the other person. Our subconscious conditioning can be so ingrained that without true self introspection we will continual to believe that we are right in our perception no matter what.

How do we prevent ourselves from falling into the trap of self sabotage in Love? By reprogramming our subconscious.

When you truly Love yourself nothing can cause you to feel insecure. Nothing can cause you to feel lack.

In every relationship it takes two people to make it go right. Often when we are in a relationship it is not just two people but it is two people plus their collective subconscious patterns wanting to emerge.

What is in your subconscious? If you find yourself ready to judge others and ready to react in anger or hurt at your Beloved's perceived missteps rather than to truly understand then you are operating out of Fear/Lack rather than Love.

Fear destroys the possibility for Love to thrive. Choose Love.

There are real red flags then there are red flags created by the self-fulfilling prophecy of a subconscious that is built on Fear/Lack.

Please enjoy this amazing interview with Bruce Lipton. Its a beautiful explanation of reprogramming your subconscious in ways that will support you.

P.S. Of course it is appropriate to discern whether or not the one you love is truly acting from a place of Love or if they are living their life completely in a lack of self-knowledge, have no desire to grow in self-knowledge and are, at this time, unable to receive or give Love.

Or if she or he simply steps out of Love and chooses to see you only through their own subconscious perceptions of Fear/Lack.

Bless and release them.

Everyone comes into our Life for a reason and a season. If we our honest with our self we will grow and learn from every situation.

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01 February 2016

Today is Monday and it is a wonderful day.
Last night I dreamt of a Huntsman spider galloping across my kitchen floor. 

Oh, the horror of it all!! I digress...
Currently working on this piece not sure how it will shape up. 

However, I do like the contrast of the organic golden delicious in the corner.

May your Monday be exactly as you desire it!! In joy & peace.

18x24 canvas
Work in Progress

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